Today-11/05/08

Today I am grateful for another blog I read just now. I was at my breaking point. My teen daughter has me weary: I am desperately trying to be who she needs; trying to help her make good decisions; trying to help her deal with the low self-esteem and abandonment issues that plague her; feeling guilty for being responsible for those issues; trying to prevent her from passing that family curse on to a new generation, illicitly created.

But with just a bible verse and a few empathetic words from a fellow struggling parent of a teenager, I feel like I am back on the track of taking it day by day and relying on God to work his magic in her life. I must remember that it is HER life. (she would love to hear me saying this right now and I don't mean it in the context in which she would want me to mean it) She will have to live it and I am only here as a safety net. To love her regardless of the decisions she makes.

I am ordering the book "The power of a praying parent" today.

Today

Today I am learning something new. This does not separate this day from any other day! I have not quite figured this out and I know it will be a work in progress. I don't mind if no one follows my blog. I don't mind if it becomes famous (which I doubt); either way, I hope I can use it to vent, celebrate and just be myself. I will try to write everyday.

Today I am tired. My throat hurts and the tip of my tongue hurts. My mom always told me that when the tip of your tongue hurts, it means you recently deprived yourself of something you really wanted. Using that theory, I am surprised the tip of my tongue doesn't hurt more often. Really, it has been a long time since I felt physically healthy.

There was a time in my life when I felt physically healthy yet an emotional trainwreck. On the bright side, I am glad to say that is no longer the case. I am sure the physical symptoms are stress-related. With four kids, a business and a bachelor's degree in progress, what can I expect?